Every once in a while I come back here to complain or be sad rather than expose my shit to tumblr, which has landed me in hot water recently.

But I am sorry that I cannot see how you could possibly care about me the way you say when you basically had to ask me why I would want what I asked for. She is cruel and heartless in my eyes, and you...do not care enough to really bother with my feelings anymore. Which is partially my own fault - I isolated myself after she did what she did because I was paranoid and would rather speak to no one than have to deal with the sort of pain that comes with knowing that a friend could toss you away without regret or a second thought simply because you like things in fiction that they do not.

And slightly but mostly unrelated I am sick of people being shitty over my ship in vld like I hate the entitled fan culture and the just vile nastiness and yet I cannot stay away the drama is like a drug that I hate and I know is bad for me but I cant seem to tear myself away from long enough to get sober.

I have been sad and that voice wont leave me alone.