At this rate I'm just going through the motions.

I don't do fb so much anymore but fb why the fuck are you suggesting the ex's gf to me???

I know that commentary is good and meant to be helpful but I am resentful that it is coming in the 11th hour and I did not receive this sort of shit during the summer when I would have had time to work on it and now my 1st chapter/paper which I thought was done needs to be altered and fixed and I fucking suck and I don't know why I should even keep going at this rate because I'm never going to get the damn degree.

And it is upsetting that this is my reaction because I know it is supposed to be helpful and has good intentions and shit but I'm just. 

My morale is so low right now. 

Pretty sure it isn't the healthiest thing to he having intense anxiety about the upcoming semester and your unfinished syllabus and just look over at your plethora of meds and think "well, it isn't like anyone would find you in time since you live alone."

I just am feeling very unwell lately. Like I'm just a huge failure and I've tricked everyone into thinking I can sometimes be alright. It...hasn't been good.