But it did sort of open my eyes to something: don't really expect certain individuals to come to your aid/support you. accept that, and accept that what you had with some of these people you thought you were close with was temporary. it's sad, a bit, but you'll get over it.
Also, stop becoming obsessive over those who hurt you. pity them, if anything, because a lot of them have apparently shitty lives and therefore have nothing better to do than to ridicule people over fiction on the internet.
write what you want, and if people think you disgusting because your stuff is dark and graphic and violent? then...let them. your work is not for them. ultimately it is for yourself - your write these things to explore your own thoughts and emotions through characters and themes, and you don't owe anyone an explanation for the things you do. (plus, with like one exception, none of the people who were shitting on you are even content creators to begin with.)
emulate seto freaken kaiba. do what you want, and don't give a shit about anyone's opinions unless they are someone you respect.
also watch more ygo when you're sad. it cheers you up
